It has been almost 2 months since my last post, but not due to lack of things to talk about. On the contrary, there is far too much to even begin to describe what has been happening in our lives lately. Unfortunately, I do not have a lot of time right now to give a lot of details, but I will do my best to expand on this at a later date. I just wanted to share a brief synopsis since many of you have been inquiring on what has been going on with Katelyn...
Katelyn's presentation of symptoms has really changed drastically over the last few months. Every professional who has come in contact with her recently has agreed that she no longer seems to be presenting like autism, but instead like a psychiatric disorder. Our family now believes that she is experiencing some sort of hallucinations, including command hallucinations that prevent her from eating, make her hurt herself and others, and more. While she is far too young to be given a diagnosis, pretty much all of her symptoms meet criteria for early child-onset schizophrenia. It is extremely rare for a child of her age to present with schizophrenia, but after what we have witnessed over the last few months, we are convinced that she has some sort of psychosis. And like I always say, just because something is extremely rare does not mean it doesn't exist. I don't care if the odds are 1 in a billion...if you are that 1 person, statistics have no meaning.
We are in the midst of trying to advocate for our daughter as we always have, but now we are facing many brick walls since we are entering the realm of mental illness. While autism is gaining more and more awareness and supports, unfortunately there are not many resources for childhood mental illness. Despite being kicked when we are down in what appears to be an uphill battle, we will not let this stop us from continuing to fight to get help for our beautiful little girl. Through no fault of her own, or anyone else's for that matter, Katelyn was dealt a difficult hand in life, but we will not sit back and watch her suffer. It may take years, and many bumps and bruises along the way, but we have faith that we will eventually find answers and appropriate treatment for what is causing our daughter so much pain.
Thank you all for your support throughout this extremely difficult time. Whenever I find the time (so probably never, haha), I will be revamping this blog since we most likely are facing something other than autism. However, I will continue to support autism research and awareness.
My mother told me of a book about a family dealing with childhood mental illness called "Mommy, I'm Still In Here." While I have yet to read the book (although I certainly plan to), the title has really struck a chord with me. It describes perfectly how I perceive Katelyn; she is being held captive by an unknown monster, but deep down the true Katelyn is waiting desperately to be set free.
