Up, Up, Up and Away...

We met with Katelyn's developmental pediatrician yesterday to discuss medication options. Her doctor decided to try one more increase of the Risperdal, stating that this will probably be the last time and we may need to try another med if this is not effective. She increased her morning dose to 1-1/2 tablets and kept her evening dose at 1 tablet (0.25 mg). We are hoping this does the trick since she has not had any adverse reactions to the Risperdal so far.

This Saturday, Katelyn will complete the last 2-hour session of her neuropsych evaluation and we will meet for the feedback appointment on 12/7.

"This Is Not Autism" (videos and phrases)...

As I've mentioned before, Katelyn presents not only with symptoms of autism spectrum disorder, but also of some other possible co-morbid psychiatric condition, quite possibly a psychosis of some sort. We have seen a recent increase in this odd behavior and recent increases in her Risperdal medication have no longer been effective as they were in the past.

Here are some recent videos of Katelyn that show some of what we are seeing at home. What we observe is usually far "worse" than this (difficult to capture on video), but it gives a rough idea of some of the things we are seeing, no pun intended...

And here are some recent phrases Katelyn has said when describing what she sees/hears (pardon the poor grammar, as these were just quick notes I jotted down):

11/10/11
Sitting with me at table while I did work...saying voh, webs, etc., then told me the webs were talking to her and laughing at her. Difficulty with feeding at dinner. Spitting out, looking up, talking about ock, etc., being defiant saying no, but could tell did not want to act that way.

11/11/11
Looking up at wall, taking shoes off as asked, then said No to putting them away. Looked up and said she saw Ew. I repeated, “You see Ew?” She said yes, Ew is climbing up the wall right there and pointed. She then said he was in a purple web with a sprinkle in it. Then she said Ew is yucky looking and that he is green. She said he talked to her and told her No about putting her shoes away.

11/14/11
In mommy’s room, talking to herself saying “Where is Ew?” over and over. I asked her what Ew looked like and she again said he is “Yucky.” I asked what color is Ew and she again said “Green” – with the odd mischievous look on her face. Then began blowing my hair and whistling and laughing hysterically saying Ew while doing it even though I told her I did not like that.

11/18/11
Getting dressed in living room, kicking me, laughing hysterically while looking off, talking about Ew, then Waw, saying Waw over and over and then she said she sees Waw and that Waw is a blue curl stuck up on the ceiling. Got extremely manicky and uncontrollable and defiant while talking about Waw.

11/25/11
In mommy’s bed with me and Ashley. Looking up at ceiling, saying Yaw and Yock. Then said I see Yock. She said Yock is not nice. Yock is in a purple web. Yock is naughty to me, Yock is always naughty to me. Then talked about seeing colorful bugs in her bed and on her sheet. She said they were red, green and blue. Said she saw them in the web with Yock. Got upset when I told her I didn’t see the colored bugs. Started talking in weird words, saying Yock is Guckak and Bocka and other strange words. Lots of talk about Yock throughout the day, even at stores, etc.

"Where There Is Great Love, There Are Always Miracles"...

Since my last post, Katelyn has had significant ups and downs. Back in June, she was again admitted to the PPHP program due to her severe aggression and self-injurious behavior. She was placed on Zoloft and her Risperdal was increased. She was then discharged in mid-July and she returned to her preschool for the last few weeks of the summer program. During this time, she had significant difficulties both at home and at school.

After the summer session ended, there was a 4-week break, during which time she was showing significant regression in terms of her behavior. It was quite apparent that she could not deal with breaks in her schooling, as evidenced by her PPHP admissions and 3-week stay at Children's Hospital, all occurring after school breaks. At this point, we were considering out-of-district placement to a school that would specialize in dealing with children similar to Katelyn, exhibiting both characteristics of autism as well as psychiatric issues. Her psychologist, developmental pediatrician, primary care physician, and neuropsychologist were all in agreement that there was sufficient reason to believe that she could no longer function in a public school setting, and out-of-district placement was recommended.

I met with the school to discuss our concerns, and they were very concerned as well. They have been wonderful to Katelyn and her family throughout all of our struggles, and they truly care deeply for her. The school psychologist and adjustment counselor became part of her team and we decided that it was worth giving it another shot at her preschool since that is the ideal place for her, if possible. Her teacher suggested that all members of her team be included on an email list so that we can all be on the same page and communicate about Katelyn's treatment, which has helped tremendously. And, boy, did Katelyn surprise all of us!

Expecting the worst, we were shocked to hear that she did well the first few days of school, and even enjoyed taking the bus again! We were still cautious, wondering if the "honeymoon period" would end like it almost always did, but it has continued! And I am so happy to report that she has drastically improved ever since! She is now playing with Ashley on a daily basis -- they are like best friends now, with the occasional fight, but nothing out of the ordinary for "typical" sibling rivalry. Just weeks before, she wasn't even able to be in the same room as Ashley, and sometimes not even on the same level of the house, without having a complete meltdown. Now she gets upset if she can't be with Ashley!

Who knows what the reasons are for her significant improvements -- perhaps her medication, perhaps the hard work and dedication of her family, school staff, and therapeutic supports, perhaps the fact that we turned our dining room into a play room, perhaps a sudden developmental growth on her part, perhaps all of the prayers and love that so many people have shared with us -- whatever the cause, it is a true miracle.

We have seen what Hell is like, believe me. But having gone through all of the difficulties over the past year, and coming through them alive and intact, we've grown stronger, and we will never, ever give up hope, no matter what obstacles may come our way in the future. We now have a taste of Heaven and we will never let it go.

(Quote by Willa Cather)